I woke up late this morning, at 8:30, still tired. As I struggled to keep both eyes open at the same time the thought ran through my head 'it's ok I slept in because Jones will get the car packed, and perhaps I can persuade him to feed the kids breakfast.' After 2 months of being alone you think these thoughts wouldn't come so much, but when you are pregnant and 8:30 in the morning feels too early :) they still come.

We are heading to AZ today to have thanksgiving with some H family. I am so happy and feel so lucky to be with them all. It should be kind of crazy for the next few days...what am I saying its not like it will be a house full of 10 kids under 11yrs old or anything :)

After I rolled out of bed, I started our day right. Mini chocolate donuts, bananas and milk. The kids have been either sick or just in a mood the last couple of days, very emotional and crying hysterically at the drop of a hat. I am trying to prepare us physically but in every other way as well for the 12 hour drive. Just another adventure for the memory book.

Love you Jones. We wish you were here.


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Here we are

I can't say who, what or why, but last night I received some bad news from a family member of mine. Heart broken I called my little sister. Hearing the distress in my voice, she immediately offered to come over. A little while later, both my sisters were here and I was so grateful for our chance to be there and support each other.
Although I woke up with a heavy heart and tear dried cheeks, I felt like a warm blanket had been put over me. I know that my Heavenly father and Savior heard my unspoken prayers as I slept last night and I can feel their presence with me.


“There is no coming to consciousness without pain. People will do anything, no matter how absurd, in order to avoid facing their own Soul. One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.”

C.G. Jung

"come with full purpose of heart, and cleave unto God as he cleaveth unto you. And while his arm of mercy is extended towards you in the light of the day, harden not your hearts. "(Book of Mormon, Jacob, Chapter 6)






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A little bit of home

Just sent Jones another care package. We have have a little over a month left!! It was time for some love from home. He has been sleeping on a mattress with only a poncho for the last month so I sent him a blanket which C picked out and is jealous of, some holiday drink from ikea, a fun past time, satsuma's to remind him of his family and home, and Aussie bites cause I had been craving them ever since his mom sent us some this summer :)
Love you honey, enjoy.

Grateful

Last month was a tough month for me. I felt heavy emotionally and distant spiritually, so I made a promise to myself that I would find time everyday to pray more, read my scriptures and talk to my kids instead of just at them. It being November and all, I also figured I would focus on the things I am grateful for.
Today I am grateful for the book of Alma.
I am grateful for a car that works.
But mostly I am grateful for 5 fingers


And five toes


And for a beautiful beating heart.
My sweet baby is healthy and seems perfectly happy doing summer salts in my belly :)





I am grateful for surprises. We were sure baby # 4 was a girl... Not so much :)



I am going to bed happy, and feeling the benefits on focusing on my many blessings.
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Pay day

With payday officially here my to do list feels a bit overwhelming. Places I want to go and things I want to do, all while hauling my crew around with me. It is a bit daunting. I already know one of these saturdays I am going to pay a babysitter and have myself a good long mom day, but for now it's still business, getting our van fixed (freedom!) groceries etc. I did however make the drive to Target yesterday where I splurged on Burt's bees lip balm and orange nail polish.







Lighting candles, listening to music and enjoying these little splurges, I might actually survive this month
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