Thursday, May 21, 2009
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
My parents air conditioning is broken and so is theirs so it was a very warm dinner, no wait hot hot dinner, and by the time I got home I felt like I could pass out from the heat. It was only Sunday and I knew I had a long week of ribbons, lemons and flowers ahead of me, how all this was going to be accomplished in the heat I had no clue. I couldn't even sleep.
I woke up Monday, later than I usually do because Jones had gotten up to take care of C bug, and then got breakfast in bed. It was the first time I ate anything but cereal for breakfast in a long time. As we were mapping out our week, Jones put getting a little window air conditioner at the top of the list. I had errands and appointments to go to, and got back exhausted, barely in time for dinner, and as I walked into our room I felt freezing cold air and saw curtains hanging from the windows, freshly vaccumed floors and clothes put away. C's room was also very tidy.
Jones had spent all day working on it, I am not sure what I did to deserve it but it was wonderful. As I went to bed monday night I thanked God for bringing Jones back to me and simple pleasures like bacon and air conditioning.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
When it came to love I had a very sensible approach, I knew that although it was a feeling it was also very much a choice, and that if I was going to commit to someone for time and all eternity it was a choice I would have to make everyday of my life, to love him, forever. But then there are those moments, like right now, when it doesn't feel like it is a choice. When I realize I love Jones, with everything that I am. Like I can get by with out him and put on a brave face, but I don't want to.
I have come to terms with the fact that there will be many times in our marriage that we will be seperated for unknown amounts of time. I can see the big picture and know that if we stck with it we will be together forever. But tonight as I lay here all alone, i'll cry myself to sleep and wish he was here.
Many years of mothers behind me and hopefully many more ahead.
"For this is my work and my glory, to bring to pass the immortality and eternal life of man."
This could not be accomplished with out Moms. Thanks.
Friday, May 8, 2009
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Love is the anterior to life,
Posterior to death,
Initial of creation, and
The exponent of breath.
I gave myself to him,
and took himself for pay.
The solemn contract of a life
Was ratified this way....
At least 'tis mutual risk,-
Some found it mutual gain;
Sweet debt of life,- Each night to owe,
Insolvent every noon.
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Sunday, May 3, 2009
With nothing to do and lots of used clothing it has been hard for me to not go into nesting mode. With Jones and I unsure of where it is we will be when baby comes it seems like a complete waste of time, and yet there was no stopping me. I got out all my bags of clothes and seperated them into age categories and left all the 0-3 mo stuff out. Altough I love looking at it I can't help but feel like it might not stay there very long. I am very proud of my set up though, and that is encouraging when looking at the fact that we might still be with my parents when Toby J comes.
I hate the idea of not being our own little family and being able to adjust to the new member without people watching us during every moment of it.
Anyways, the pics are just some more little projects, looking at some of the clothes now I can't believe some of them were used and free!