I think that I have lightly mentioned that I don't feel like myself since having had third baby.
Today I wish to put it in stronger words.
I feel like a nut case.
I try to suppress the feeling but life keeps throwing it back in my face,
that my brain isn't functioning at full capacity.
Since Alf, our bank account has been overdrawn about 10 times and not always because we didn't have the money but because of timing or me just spacing out and paying the wrong bills at the wrong time.
We have probably paid $300 in overdraft fees, $300 we don't have!!
Maybe this wouldn't bother me so much if the dishes were done, or I slept more than 3 hours at a time last night, but that isn't the case.
I can't seem to be on top of anything, anything for longer than a day or two.
It feels like "prego" brain didn't leave after I had the baby.
It frustrating to feel like I work so hard to save our family money, and especially with Christmas coming up and all the work of homemade presents in front of me it makes me mad to know that we might not get a tree because of me.
That we can't have people over because the house is never clean.
That C had to wear Church clothes to preschool because the rest were dirty.
Alfred is almost 7 months old, I would like my sanity back now please!
Ok enough, back to suppressing the feeling.