Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Remembering to be Happy

I love our new place. I would love it more if I didn't have a sinus cold. I have been pretty sick over the last five days. There have been moments when I feel like I just can't catch a break. I am always sick, or waiting or stressed and unsure, always. I never have a moment to catch my breath, take in the good and enjoy life.

Last year when I was teaching the 6 year olds at church I taught a lesson called "I can be Happy". At the time I thought to myself it seemed like a silly thing to have to teach. Of course Everyone knows they can be Happy, and yet here I am looking at week 5 of being pretty unhappy, and forgetting that I don't have to feel this way.

It is hard though. Even coming to this realization doesn't automatically change anything. I am sooo tired, from being pregnant and sick that it takes a lot of energy for me to find my happy, but it is something I am working on.
If I can just give my babies an extra smile, If I can just remember to breathe and look at the things I love around me, the happiness will creep in.

And if that doesn't work I can always remember I only have 2 more months left of being pregnant, not that I won't be tired anymore but it is a different kind of tired.

Simple pleasures of the day:
Eating strawberries
breathing through my nose
Hearing C sing the speed racer theme song {knowing how much his daddy loves it when he does that}

1 comment:

MelancholySmile said...

I know what you mean when you say the realization doesn't make everything automatically better. It's work, isn't it?

I hope sickness decides to leave you alone for a while! Being ill makes everything worse. :(

Can't wait to hear more about your new place. Feel better!